Why do i seek forgiveness,
why do i need to meet my problems head on,
why do people not understand,
why did you have to die,
why did you go away
why did i do it
why must i suceed
why must i be so judgemental
why can't i forget
why can i always forgive
why do I love
why do i hate
why can't i find the answer
why can't i find peace
why can't the world have peace
why do i worrie
why do i care
why do I
"No one is immune to the trials and tribulations of LIFE"
"Ride this motherfucker till the wheels fall off"
I love it a have been officially labeled as the "go to guy" you know as much as I love to help people and give everyone a hand it isn't that glamourus at all. Some would see it as a really good thing.. people can depend on you and can trust you. which is great hell i am not concerned about that at all.. the thing that does get my goat a little is the fact that in the small office I work in i am still the go to guy... which is fine! Except when it is some stupid shit like how to print the labels or to log on to the server. Stupid shit like that but hell i am the "go to guy" so shit i will stop what i am doing and come give your ass a hand. And even thats ok because i rather spend the slight time doing it correctly it that having to spend hours fixing a problem. But when you are called away for 2, 3 or even four times a day there isn;t a hole lotta day to get some work done. Especially when there is projects that get missed. While I am still bustin my ass to get the stuff done for Nov my coworker is all ready geting the other stuff in the office done for december. Which is fine... But would comon sense say that maybe it makes more help to give a hand and get the stuff thats due in Nov done before getting the other stuff done first? But thats ok but shit next time they have a stupid question which will drag me away from what i have to do till there is no help. Then i will just have to tell them that it is at least a 2 day wait and if that means you can't do any work then i am sorry but go home then. Because in a small team based office it makes sense for everyone to work forward not to leave someone behing but in the same token that means i have to get back in the race and for me to do that i need to put my head down and get it done. So sorry the "go to guy" isn't going to be around until these projects are done.. then the other funny thing is a get my ass rushed to get stuff done. "take a look at this, i need this done, load this, fix this, you know what FUCK THAT! so i am sorry that the "go to guy isn't always there when you need him and just like me you can figure shit out for yourselves. It is called take a class, read a book or shit play around by your self Computers aren't like open heart surgery they are not that complicated if you take a little time and see what works and what someone does then it makes sense on how to run them. Now don't get me wrong i have no idea how to program software or anything like that. But i am a hardware guy and i know this basic stuff. So if i can pick up on it and master it with no books or anything just by seeing what people are doing and asking questions then why can't everyone else? Like we have all been in the office for some time now and something doesn't work the best thing is to restart it not rocket science but commmon sense. But don't worrie i will drop what i am doing and come and flip the switch to get you back on line.. because I am The GO TO GUY!!!
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Dedicated to my babe.............
So I woke up this morning and decided that today was going to be the day that i was going to wrap up some stuff here in the office. There was a couple things like this computer that i needed to get done. i bought it like early october.. so ya but i know what you are thinking is that i was busy or lazy or something ... but rea;;y i was busy but it kept on giving me problems every turn.. so i figured it all out and ready to roll. I am just downloading the virus scan now and it is at 90% complete so i am 10% always from having a full functionaly system which is great to see once again. But for the last month i have had 2 monitor in my office and i have loved it... so now i don't want it to go.. i think i might have to start bringing in my laptop again and start using that for music and like msn and stuff. If you have never tried it and you are borad out of your mind then try it... i gurantee that you will never go back.
So i thinks thats my day so far... yesterday was one of those days thats why my last post was that song.. it descrbed perfectly how i was feeling yesterday. Everything was going wrong.. and i don''t think i was in the right mind frame to deal with any of it.... but my babe had some good news so we went out to celebrate and a very nice dinner. Then went home and smoked myself retarted! Then went to bed....
My roommate bought the new family guy dvd so we were watching that and enjoying..which i have to say after a shitty day i had a great night. So now here i am installing software and hardware on all the computers in the office here and get everything to a complete point, I really should have done this a while ago but for some reason i still havn't done it.
So now it is all complete finally... and i couldn't be happier than now... well if it was friday then it would all be better but i guess beggers can't be choosers... but i am not beggin so maybe i will just take tommarro off.
Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sux
You don't really know why
But you want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
It's just one of those days!!
[chorus]
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Lettin' shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
(Punk, so come and get it)
Its just one of those days
Feelin' like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with a blood stain
Damn right I'm a maniac
You better watch your back
Cuz I'm fuckin' up your program
And if your stuck up
You just lucked up
Next in line to get fucked up
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
Its just one of those days!!
[chorus]
I feel like shit
My suggestion is to keep your distance cuz right now im dangerous
We've all felt like shit
And been treated like shit
All those motherfuckers that want to step up
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break your fuckin' face tonight!!
Give me somethin' to break
Give me somethin' to break
Just give me somethin' to break
How bout your fuckin' face
I hope you know I pack a chain saw, what!!...
A chain saw, what!!...
A motherfucking chain saw, what!!...
So come and get it
What comedian makes you pee your pants laughing?
Submitted by pookieb.
I personally think that Chris Rock Is definetly up there as one of my fav.... his last one never scared was just great.... besides that george carland, eddie murphy, martin lawrence was pretty good too.... (you will see a post about that tommarrro) I persoanlly like Chris Rock..... Shit now i am going to go home and watch it.....
Buried in my neck
This town- it takes lives
Without Mercy
Without Hate
the streets are in distress,
the sun suffocates behind darkened skies
the grass is growing
on top of my feet
Im sinking
Wont be long before I'm too deep to run
The line up seems endless undernneath the salvation signs
we are the dead ones
we are the lost cause
we are the bend before the break
Our steps seal our fate
Because this city, this city is haunted
by ghosts(ghosts) from broken homes(homes)
Because this city, this city is haunted
and there;s no hope(hope) left for these souls(souls)
every step i take
i leave a small piece of myself behind soon there will be nothing left
the cracks in the pavement
match the cracks in their weathered skin
the sky's a brick wall
the ground's a juggernaut
each day they get a bit closer
between them, i am caught
I stare in amazement, I cant believe this is where I live
every breath i take
i feel my lungs fail
This breeze feels more like shards of glass
I'm more scars than skin
Because the city, the city is haunted, by ghosts (ghosts) from broken homes (homes)
because this city, this city is haunted. theres no hope. (hope) left for these souls (souls)
Our steps seal fate
Our steps seal fate
this is our celebration
come join the lost souls
this is our celebration
come join the lost souls
the city, the city is haunted
Oh,walk with us
Oh,damn,walk with us
the city, the city is haunted, by ghosts(ghosts) from broken homes(homes)
because this city, this city is haunted. theres no hope(hope) left for these souls(souls)
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel? that is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in, describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real, so much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises (no more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember its just different from what you've seen.
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you Yeah-yeah
"The Gift"
Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of me
I am so ashamed of me...
I am not even sure what the hell to say about this. i think it is so funny how fergie is that high on her self!!!! to name a song after her? like give me a break i know artist do it all the time but in the same token this girl better let some of the air out of ass so she can come down a little.. like honestly the first song london bridge... ok not a horrible song but there is a part in it that says "fergie love you long time" like i rather shoot myself in the fucking head than let fergie even lay a finger on me..... now don't get me wrong here when she was with the black eyed peas.. that shit was all right .... then it started going bad then recovered and then the put out my humps!! Like what the fuck is with this shit!!! Like you aree going to get me drunk off your humps... shit i wouldn't eat a top sirlion off that shit!!! let alone drink from it... shit did anyone see her in that fucking london bridge video she was fuckin the royal guards like shit!!!! Then i am going to get drunk ff your humps.... hell no that is like saying that i would eat a kitkat off the sidewalk.
It is like putting fergie and prince in a popularity contest.......... Prince won! by a land slide!!!!
